This past weekend fell under the header of “surreal” for me. It wasn’t that anything particularly odd happened but rather as if the whole of the last two days was one experienced through a layer of gauze that left every experience with a sense of distance and peculiarity. It was like I was floating through my life at a bit of a distance from the actual action. And honestly, I am not sure yet if the fog has been lifted, it’s a little too early to tell just yet. Additionally, since I am not sure what causes the experience or if in fact I even find it bothersome I am not quite sure what if any action needs to be taken to dial it back to “normal”.
I usually feel like I am “right in there”, in the action of the moment but my experience has been moved out a notch as if I am observing my life in the present rather than just living it. And while on some level this is a bit unsettling, it is also pretty interesting and there is this sense that there are a lot of lessons to be learned, even in the most mundane of experiences. So while I ponder this phenomenon – I am taken with one of those simple messages about reality. It is not so much the “what” of what happens in our lives but the “how” of how we take in the experience and make meaning from it that is of the greater significance.
Our perception of experience is the thing that really impacts our lives; the meaning rather than the doing that affects our experience. It just usually isn’t so conscious, but quietly working away in the background of our daily lives. Actions may speak louder than words but our experience of those actions in terms of how we weave them into the story of our days is the learning edge. I believe that this is true from whatever vantage point we are operating. And as I write, I realize I am still a bit “out there” at present and I look forward to not only what my day will bring but to what it will mean for me as I move through it. You never know what the day is going to bring – and I look forward to my daily lesson – today from the perspective of really knowing that I am a student in this process. So as I drift off into this more conscious reality I will leave you with this question – What will you learn from your day today; about the things you do, the world around you and your own self?