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Return of the Prodigal Blogger July 8, 2010

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I don’t want to write another blog about writing a blog – but I’m afraid every time I sit down to start writing that’s what comes to the fore. I guess it just feels funny to me to post an entry after having taken a couple of weeks away from the blogging world without acknowledging that absence. And believe me, not a day passed in between when I didn’t at least think about writing, though on many occasions I had started entries but never finished them. I have given this whole thing a lot of thought and have been trying to figure out what it is I want to and am willing to commit to with regard to the regularity of my postings and I am still undecided.

Ideally I would be posting something every morning (weekday mornings that is, given I decided several months ago that giving myself the weekend off was a good thing.) Though for a while there – posting three entries per week also felt satisfactory. But lately my presence has been more like absence and I for one am not satisfied with that situation. And despite what this may sound like, I am not giving myself a hard time about it. We all have only so much energy and lately with my schedule as it is I have needed to focus it elsewhere. That said – I miss the writing – this forum has provided a great outlet for my musings, I get a lot from it and do not want to let it go altogether. I don’t want it to be an abandoned hobby in my storage room but a regular part of my life.

So as I sit here writing about this issue, here’s what occurs to me regarding how I want to approach this frequency of posting issue. I guess, I have decided that like so many other things, my best approach is a fluid one. Rather than force myself to conform to a rigid schedule, I will simply allow myself to post as frequently as my time and energy allow. Maybe I will get back to daily postings at some point, maybe it will be three times a week or once – and whatever it is will be enough. I know this is something I want to be a regular part of my life but forcing it to become a responsibility and a chore will do nothing to enhance either the pleasure of the experience or the quality of efforts.

If you want to make sure you don’t miss anything – then feel free to subscribe to it – so you will get email updates. If you want to check back in periodically to see if you’ve missed anything then that’s fine, too, that choice is yours. For my part, I am committing to still doing writing these posts for myself and for anyone out there who enjoys reading them. To that end I also commit to the ideal of writing as frequently as I am able – balancing the writing with the other demands for my time and attention.  To some this may sound like a cop-out, to me it is anything but. Every day we each have to consider where and how we will focus our time; balancing our work, families, responsibilities, pleasures and commitments. It never ends. How we choose to find that balance is an individual decision, and allowing ourselves to trust our judgment as to what is best is our responsibility to ourselves and those around us. “So, you all come back now – ya hear…”

 

Prefection Reflection May 17, 2010

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(Wrote this one mid-day Sunday.)

A most excellent day! Find myself home and alone on a BEAUTIFUL, sunny day. Woke up early – got the grocery shopping done and laundry started before 9:00, just in time to enjoy sitting in the sun in my favorite and most private spot in the yard. After two restful hours soaking up the most glorious sunshine – and sketching a drawing that was floating around in my brain, spent another three hours or so – making said creation. It felt particularly good since I spread everything out on the grass and finished the first piece of artwork I have created in about six, long months. And I am now pondering – what’s next?

It’s one of those days that I am enjoying both productivity and recreation. Have had four long conversations with dear friends and am feeling both social and solitary. I had been thinking about having a friend to dinner and have been invited to another friend’s house if I’d like to join a group of folks for a casual meal. Just can’t quite decide what I am up for, since I am really enjoying being alone as much as I am tempted to spend time with friends. I am less inspired to get in my car for the 40 minute drive however and don’t know if I am up for putting on – leaving the house clothes. Ho-hum, problem of plenty I guess, things could be a lot worse.

This weekend is not what I had planned. I had intended to go out-of-town to spend some time with my boyfriend, but familial responsibilities kept me tethered to the home front. I wasn’t particularly happy about that change, but am rolling with it quite well as it turns out. Recently read a quote from a Buddhist monk (sorry, forgot his name) who said something to the effect of “People are always living for the future, and the only future we really have is the present.” Found myself nodding inside – and thinking, “so true, so true”. I think it’s easy to get wrapped up in our future plans and I for one am absolutely committed to the idea of planning for and creating a future vision for ourselves that is meaningful and resonant with who and how we want to be. But at the same time, I am equally convinced that living in the moment and making the best of the now is the way to go (while building and expanding on the past). It’s all interconnected and fluid, given that there are certainly no real breaks in between.

So to that end – I shall continue forth with my lovely day, my brief reflective writing moment drawing quietly to a close. I still don’t know what will come next – but I am okay with that – because at this very moment – life is beautiful perfection. Peace – LB